Breakfast alone. Not often here but the day it happens I notice it. Especially today as their news letter was all about dental decease and rotting teeth and I am so worried about my teeth. Really need to go to dentist soon. (Read now) AAAAAAAaaaarrrggghhhh….. I am not frightened about many things but dentists are on the scary list.

8.50 Physio therapy with Marlene. First on a fit ball sitting on it not holding on to anything as I had managed yesterday. I wasn’t as good today as the ball was stiffer. Then she tried to get me to stand up on one leg but I had already peaked with my muscles so I just wanted to fall down on floor.

I am walking everywhere without any aid. Zimmer frame gone. No crutch needed or used and I do not use the lift any more so walking self up and down stairs. Going downstairs is a bit scary as it hits my double vision.

I have double vision all the time in certain areas. Looking down to the right is my worst area, but this area is now spreading further up. So now watching the TV is a double encounter. It’s easily solved by closing one eye but I don’t really want to patch up one eye. Not a good look.

9.20am psychology 1 hour. She was kind today and said many kind things. About my adaptable brain, how I look for new solutions and never look back and how quick I find and see patterns. Oh there was something else but my brain has chosen to forget it.

I talked to my mum again today and she is really coming on friday! I cannot wait!

11.15 Ergo therapy with Angelina we did proper planks. Where you keep hovering your body flat about a foot over the ground and stay there, also the moving stones and in a bucket full of coffee beans. I got to move stones  with left hand. Some where so heavy I almost couldn’t do it. In the end all 4 stones went in the bucket and I had to carry it with only my left arm…. gosh hard!

12.00pm waiting for Cecilia to arrive again

12.20 Lunch with Cecilia!!!! Yihaaa!! No more lonely me!

2.00pm Ergo therapy with Angelina. I played a game where I put 40 odd screws in to a board. Then I started to take screws out by jumping over them with one. The aim of the game is to have only one screw left at the end… I had 2. Angelina said she had never seen anyone get less than me, but I still see I can make an improvement. Next time I will get this!

2.30pm in the gym. With Marlene. So we went on my blue plastic pony again. It hasn’t got exercised all weekend or yesterday so it was really fresh! I nearly came offf it twice. In the end I let go of the reins and it settled. Still not showing any ability to jump..

We then took to 2 round fit balls and went stomach down rolling on top of ball. There stop and balance self with legs in air. Then turn hips and scissor legs both directions. Gosh hard! So we did this until my arms and legs were shaking out of control. `Then Marlene showed me a good stomach exercise I could do with the ball. Between my legs sideways and up and down. I have a problem with the lower back with the up and down one so will just stay with right and left until further notice.

Cecilia brought with her lots of candy! (that is real love) and she was watching Hart of Dixie when I came back. I had managed to watch 10 episodes without her… How is that even possible? Need to buy new series, will see what it will be,,,

Now awaits dinner and then a swim in the hot pool. Maybe we will brave the hairy men in the sauna area. Update tomorrow.

Cecilia is reading a new book. As scary as something I would not read at the moment. Its about the second world war. One person died every 4 second.

I heard from mum the end of the world was scheduled to the 21/12/12 but my psychologist Silvia claims that it’s a translation problem. This was the Maya indians that had this futuristic insight and people that had translated it had changed the meaning from the world will enter a new phase to the world will end.

She explained that this new phase could be a positive. For me it would really be. Whatever it brings let it bring change and positive energy!

Keep Smiling 🙂 The world is still a mystery

Wow! I have survived 2 weeks here!

Today tough cookie day.

8.30am Physio with Ennio who claimed he can do the moon walk for everyones knowledge out there. He heard from the greek psychiatrist that I had written something aboout his below average skills in moon walking. This means 2 things. First Ennio might be a liar as I have seen no evidence today of his so called skills. I have a greek follower on this blog. We have about 200 people reading the blog every day! We work a little on jumping with Ennio. I get to jump and land “softly” on both feet. I jump (not high at all) and land with no silence what so ever. Think was more like tank than ninja. Practised and got a little better. Nearly fell twice and pulled my own shoe of once.

9am talking to doctors office to find out about missing files and adding appointment with doctor Koch later on this week.

9.30am Rosi picking me up to go to Zurich to epilepsy specialist. We got there early and headed in Rosi’s car in to the centre of Zurich. The neuro specialist centre is in Bellevue close to the Globus shopping mall. We headed in for a Starbucks coffee before the meeting. Coffee was awesome! Mmmmmm

I went in to have my brain scanned. An EEG I think it’s called. Basically a net is put on to your head then 30 or so metal bits are attached. Then some grey foul smelling putty is put underneath metal on top of hair and skin to make you look and smell awful. It also makes it possible to scan your brainwaves.

I have got a photo of me with said contraption on head but can’t upload it….

I had a 2min EEG and they make you hyperventilate and look at flashing lights etc. Had it done to me in Mallorca but here it was serious business.

We then went for lunch at a very nice french restaurant in Bellevue, close to the Opera. I had a risotto and a salad. It was great!

Back for my 1pm appointment with specialist. He was so happy about my brain scan. He said brain looked almost normal so this could be either I have a very normal brain or more likely my brain agrees with the medicine I am on and he told me to stay on that medicine until october 2013. He also said I could try to start riding again given I feel alright and it will bee safe to get on in beginning of february. 3 months after a major head injury with a brain bleed is what he said.

I have developed a more acute double vision since last week and he said Dr Koch would be able to sort that out. So hopefully without taping one eye shut, because I know thats not a great look. Going down stairs is dangerous as i see steps that are not even there. We headed down a lift and only thanks to the back wall I didn’t fall over!

Today is the first day for me without walking aids!

I must say for Zurich I brought a stick but only to keep people aware of me. That kind of worked. The woman that walked in to me super hard probably have a very sore shoulder now, luckily she hit my left side so no worries. She better watch out next time she sees someone with a crutch! She should slow down step to the side or something. My pink hair should also have scared her or something…

Back at clinic 2.30pm an hour rest before walking down the stairs for swimming gymnastic with Ennio 3.30pm. We did the snake under foot exercise as well as the jesus hands turning direction. I was most impressed by left hand that managed to pull down a ver floatable floaty thing that Ennio didn’t think I had the strength to pull under water and put my foot on top. Ha! I did it!

4.30pm Ergo therapy with Angelina. I got to do the putting in lego sticks as well as pulling them out on time as well as hand strength test. The plastic sticks I did a 19 second on my right hand (previously 20 and 28 seconds) and a 41 second with my left hand (previously 49 second and deemed non fit!) on the hand strength test where I last week scored a 4kg on my left hand I now managed to score a 7kg! (On my right hand I instead lost a kg. Down to 17kg but Angelina says this is normal so I’m  not worried!)

After all exercise I went back to my room for some chilling out time before dinner. Today dinner was interrupted by facebook messages from Sammy in England, thats 2 bonuses already 1 there was internet connection 2 got a lovely update on Sammy. It’s so good to have a little sister I never had for real.

My plastic bubble is almost deciding to leave me but then I realise I have a lot of further mending to do so I beg for bubble to stay as it’s making me stronger. Angelina today tried to prepare me for “plateuing” basically when you are getting stronger and better when you train all of a sudden you don’t feel like you are moving forward and this can happen to any of us. It’s like a step on a set of stairs you pick up new muscle and learn new tricks then it stabilises and you don’t feel like you are moving on any more. I think Angelina is worried I would lose my fighting spirit if I didn’t move forward at this pace all the time. She doesn’t know the fighter in me. It takes time to become a real tigress. We wait until the time is right and as a guide it’s not until I come back to Mallorca I will have to set the record straight. With some hospital workers. At Son Espases. As well as some very nice nurses and one very nice doctor there were terrible people I have heard about now. What was done to me. I have a hickey the size of a big coin, big and purple and it was from a needle. Maybe if I have the entire story told I would get it but now it just does not make any sense.

I am planning my going to bed now after such a busy day! I have not had a proper lie down or tried getting to sleep. Starbucks might be to blame for that who knows?

Keep Smiling 🙂 You never know sometimes you get a smile back!

So end of my second week here in bad Schinznach- try to pronounce that with a half sleeping tongue!

The year 2012 has had an awful lot of energy in it. Good and bad it seams. My family were supposed to be here now but the last “casualty” of the bad energies were Millie catching some throat infection and staying in hospital 3 nights. Now she is back safe home so we have to be thankful and happy for that.

I have received my schedule for next week and other than a few mistakes like doouble bookings it looks pretty full on!

I have another tuesday with 6 sessions. They are mad aren’t they? On monday I have only 3 but also my trip to Zurich to see specialist.

Today we had decided no workout. So instead we started with breakfast in our own pace followed by some chilling in our room then I went for a massage. It was the first full body massage I have received after my accident. As my feeling is very low or non excitant on my left side I was worried about how it would feel. It was ok. It felt nothing like other massages I have ever had.

The strangest sensation was when she was finishing off on my face. Well my left side of my face has no normal feeling. There is some feeling, I can for example feel her hands on my face. But thats it. I can’t feel what they are doing. Thats kind of freaky. So I slip back in my bubble.

After the massage Cecilia awaits to help me back to lunch. She has been over to the fully naked area of the bath to check out. She heard you could/were supposed to wear a towel so she felt empowered by this information, but on her way in she saw the flash of a hairy bottom and she decided to brave it when there are two of us.

We decided on a quick walk before lunch and today I was listening extra carefully out for some birds and I heard some twice. So not too Hitchcock like today.

Lunch was delicious but Cecilia and I were both thinking about our new series on computer “Hart of Dixie”. Oh how totally watchable for me. Very slow paced, romance and kind people. Just enough for me!

Good things that happened to me in 2012:

I became Mallorcan Champion in show jumping with Eva Lux.

I finished Vatternrundan a 300 km bike race in Sweden.

We had a successful triple christening of our girls in Sweden.

So many of our friends and family have gotten married or had children so thats all good energy to take forward.

Sometimes I start weighing the good against the bad but that only drives me crazy. So I revert back in to my bubble again.

I took a few photos of my zimmer frame as this is what the pony is called in English. But I have mislaid my phone now where the photos are on so I will post pony on here tomorrow as I am returning him to the lady in charge tomorrow.

How will I survive? Without the pony? And no crutch either. I will see what happens tomorrow. My first session is at 8.30am so I will walk down straight from breakfast.

You would not believe it but now I can walk unaided for a lengthy distance. And stay on my two feet staining up on my own for minutes without rest. It’s just this change to become pony less tomorrow, I lose a little bit of the identity I have managed to get here.

Now I am going down to dinner. As Cecilia left at 3pm (she is coming back tuesday) I am eating dinner on my own. Hope you all have good company!

Thanks for reading and thanks for all your support!

Keep smiling 🙂 Have a thumb held tomorrow that all tests go well!

Apparently we all just have one month to live. The world comes to an end on the 12/12/12. Why? I don’t know. For me it sounds like a happy date not a end the world date.

So today I was awoken by the phone calling me to say my physio session had been confirmed for 9.40am. The time when they called was 8.50am so I’d better get my arse in full gear so I’d have time to eat breakfast before the session.

9.40am Physio therapy with Caroline. She was this weeks Saturday worker. We played lots of games and did a lot of throwing balls and catching balls with my left hand. I was average. I really don’t like the averageness of my being sometimes. I get a flashback sometimes to what I used to be. Never a good thing so I head back into my plastic bubble.

I went for a lie down for an hour after my session. I ate a whole bag of m&m. Felt a little bit better so I decided we should go for a walk.

Cecilia and me went to the river. It’s so huge and it was so still today. It was really quiet outside. Not a bird sound actually. Only the wheels from my rullator (what do you call them in english? They have wheels on them and you walk behind them holding on to them and using them for stability instead of crutches) We call mine the pony as he is really handy when we decide to go places and we don’t want to carry something for example.

After the walk we had lunch, with coffee. And after that we got changed in to gym stuff and headed down in to the gym. I did a 10 min cycle on effort 8. I burnet enough calories to eat half an apple! Then I did sitting on a fit ball without holding on and I actually did it!

Cecilia did some stomach stuff and then felt it necessary to watch over me so I wouldn’t crash in to something. The mother of 4 really couldn’t let go…

When we finished in the gym we head straight to the pool. We did both hot pools today. Cecilia also went down the scary slide and we walked against the waters direction inn the fast flowing stream! We stayed for some bubbles as  well and finished off in a turkish sauna with strong smelling mint smell. It was awesome. But for any normal person I think I would have been terrible to be with but for a saint like my cousin, she just joined in, yes of course we can just spend 2 min doing this. Sure no problem you want to change the pool.

I have an attention span of a 5 year old. `That together with my double vision makes reading a real problem.

After the swim I got really tired again and went to lie down and take it easy for an hour.

Cecilia came and woke me up for todays entertainment in the lobby. Real Swiss music and singing and dancing. We came down just ass a man started to play on a broom. It was one of my favourite brooms from the stable. Like the ones witches like to ride. So that makes an interesting instrument in Switzerland!

We then went and played 2 board games. I won one and Cecilia won the other one so it’s 1-1.

Then we went for dinner and Skype calling families in other countries. My daughters are so cute. I talked on the phone with Nicola and Millie and on Skype with Dan Myrna and Melonie.

So lovely to have a moment of close to normality.

My left side is really annoying me today. I’m  getting these small indications that I’m getting some feeling back but then like today I realise there really is not so much sensation. In my face for example I can feel nothing on my left side. Not in my mouth on my tongue or anything. Sometimes I think I am feeling more but then when you walk in to walls/doors or something hard and the only way you notice is because of the change of direction you are going… sad really.

So even though I yesterday was upbeat about no sensation, I’d like some back now please.

Tomorrow Sunday and I am doing a lot of resting. Monday I am going to an Epilepsy specialist in Zurich. A friend of my family is taking me as my family won’t be able to come tomorrow. Actually getting a little bit sad under my plastic bubble over that. Cecilia is coming back on tuesday so I wont be alone for so long. She is a saint!

Keep smiling 🙂 There is grace and goodness in this world

So Cecilia is here and in her true fashion I started the day with high spirits. Also because of yesterdays high energy I was thinking my tired self was gone… how wrong was I?

9.30am physio therapy in Rund bau- means round house- we were working on standing up  on one leg both left and right holding the other leg up. Then we sat on a fit ball and had to keep both legs up. That is seriously hard. I only managed for a super short time and only after I was sat balancing with my right arm in front of me. There is lots of improvement to work on.

My new hairstyle and colour is making a lot of talk around Bad Schinznach. One of our regular old friends today said he was going to be depressed if I was leaving this weekend. We said don’t worry I’m not leaving for another week and a half so that pleased him.

I remember sitting next to him on the exercise bike singing yesterday, so maybe some more of that singing to spread around Bad Schinznach? Cecilia is just singing  for Viggo her son and it’s the little snail song in Swedish so maybe we can do a duet later?

10.45 am Ergo therapy with Angelina. More volleyball with a balloon. Sat on a small ball. Then stand up push ups both with and without balls and finished off with a screwing game. I had to remove bolts from different types of screws. Coordinating my thumb and pointy finger on my left hand.

A last coffee with my lovely sister. And some macaroons that Cecilia had baked. They were amazing!!!! Delight! Hugs goodbye to my best ever sister and she also reached inside my plastic bubble. Will miss her but only a week and a half until I go back.

A lunch with Frau Muller. She was delighted with the  wednesday desert buffet. I nearly fell asleep at lunch.

I went up for a 30 min sleep before my

1.30 Physio Therapy with Marlene again. She has never seen me so tired so I got a massage by her instead of me working. That was the first time I think I was pleased not to have any feeling in my body as she really didn’t hold back anything. As she was working deep tissue massage on my shoulder I could kind of feel it behind my ear.

Ah well, I think maybe the feeling will come back some time.

Dan is back in Mallorca now and Millie is feeling better. Thats good!

After my quick chat with him I had another lie down.

3.30pm still tired for Ergo therapy. Caroline this time. We played the dice and rubber band game again. It was good fun and it gets easier to use my left hand every day. Typing here is getting easier each day.

The progress I have made here in nearly 2 weeks is incredible. Not really counted on this progress. I hope this will continue. I have work to do each day now and a lot of muscles to build.

Cecilia and me went swimming in the hot spring. It was awesome as always. We went in the grown up pool as it was so early and it’s a bit cleaner than the kids pool. We didn’t get lost like Dan and Mercedes but we did see that you had to take off your clothes if you were to go upstairs. Sometimes it helps having a german speaking/reading relative with you!

Now we are talking to our families in Sweden, Germany and Mallorca, then of for dinner.

Keep Smiling 🙂 You learn something new each day!

Early start

8am Therapy of physical variety. Marlene did the walking test again. 2 minutes walk as far as you can. Last week I did 77 meters.

I’m only a little bit competitive as you know so I was just going to try and break it a little. I did a flat 200 meters in 2 minutes. Even Marlene looked impressed!

I then went up on some step training. I was stood with my left foot on the ground lifting the right one up and down on and off the steps. I was doing that until my left side was shaking uncontrollable. Its just the muscles trying to do their work. I asked Marlene about massage and if it would be good for me she said oh are you not getting any in your therapy. Then she said yes 2 times per week would be good especially now I am working muscles so hard.

8.30am I was waiting for my Ergo therapy to start. But I was an hour early.

9.30am Ergo therapy. We wer working a lot with plastic bands (fit bands) I was seated on a red ball and first we played volley ball with a balloon sitting on the ball. It was awesome fun. Even with my legs pulled up I didn’t loose my balance. I managed to get the balloon back every time. The fit bands we pulled to get the shoulder working. It was hard work but all very rewarding. I have done similar tasks last week and failed. This week I can do it! Very good.

11am Physio at the gym. First 10 min on the bio. This time it’s easy to keep speed over 70 rpm. `It’s also easy to keep going for 10 min. It’s the first 3d lesson I have startrd with this much energy!

We work on standing up with only my left leg. Try and do that and see how you go. All weight on the left side. At first too hard but with a change of technique it’s working all of a sudden. I finish of climbing o the wooden climbing frame. Here only allowed to use my left arm to pull me up. Gosh they really know how to work me!

I had a lunch with Johanna after I tried to find her in the spa for 30 min. Maybe my german really isn’t getting any better?

Then we had some more bad news. Millie my youngest daughter is very poorly and is in hospital in Mallorca. It’s a chest infection so she needs to stay in hospital 72hrs which makes every bodies plan of coming here next week has now vanished. Dan and Nicola  are now staying at Mallorca with all the girls. Never mind. I stay in my plastic wrap, but this almost touches me.

2.30pm Ergo therapy with Angelina. We play this game were you are supposed to pick out wooden sticks without making the tower fall. Here they call it Jenga. I was only allowed to use my left hand and I won! Then we did it backwards. Putting the pieces back. That was so much harder.

3pm hairdresser. I had ordered new pink colour. They sadly had not got the colour, so I got a flamingo cooer that they had. It was still very awesome. She cut my hair as well. Short back and side windy fringe. So cute!

Dan is in the UK again and I am wishing him all the best of luck with every thing. I think about him all the time and he is on the inside of my plastic bubble, so I do actually feel for him.

I am tonight going to welcome my new guest, my cousin Cecilia is coming all the way from Heidelberg. She arrives after dinner is served so we will just take her swimming!

Johanna is now hooked on once upon a time! It’s really great! I have seen the whole first series! Anyone knows when the next series is out?

Today I have had 4 coffees, but no sleep at all during the entire day. I will see how I sleep tonight but I think it will go well!

Keep smiling! I think some of my energy has returned! More in the body than the brain….

So it’s the first day of the second week. Not sure it means anything to them but they have clearly upped my work schedule.

Today I had 6 lessons.

It started at 8.30am with Ergo therapy. This time a lot more push-ups against the door followed by different arm lifts and a pretend swim at the end.

This was followed by playing with girls when Dan was having some important treatment for his back. The girls and I played with their barbies then we went down to reception where I changed some times. This time I was driving them in my wheelchair! A great way to walk with aid (somehow the wheelchair does balance the driver!)

10.30am physio therapy. Marlene she took me for a long walk from the therapy rooms to the gym. There she put me on top a double fit ball. Like on a horse. Then she told me to pick up my feet. Then put them forward. Then she gave me reins. Then she told me to get on and off it from the left side like a real horse.

It’s blue. Plastic. And very hard to sit on. As a horse I’d give it no hope. It felt sensitive and scope less! No worse combination really! I will practice on it every day. I have made it my mission to make that useless piece of gym trash my new lovely pet! If it goes like my other “projects” it will probably jump a small course by the end of the week!

11am 1 whole hour of psycho therapy. The girls and Dan were swimming at this hour! They had fun whilst I was prodded by Sylvie the head doctor. I left with a new technique ffor relaxing and hopefully to sleep soundly.

12pm I got to see my girls one last time for a quick lunch before they went to the airport.

12.30pm Dan and the girls left.

1.45pm a neuro something doctor session. He was checking my ability to think and recognise things and patterns. We spent about 1hr on a computer. First I got to answer lots of questions on what I remembered from before the accident etc. I told him I have forgotten nearly all names of peopleI know and shops etc. Its sadly true. If I need to call someone I can no longer find them in my phone because I can’t remember what they are saved as.

It gets a little better each day. Every time I get an email or text from someone I remember more. I must look a bit odd though when I go through my phone not really knowing who is in there. Ah well you are all getting your 15 min of fame. In a week or 2 I will make it my mission to get all of you back!

3pm Ergo therapy. This time first i got to roll 3 dice. 2were normal and one had 6 colours on it.  There was a board with 25 nails in it. If I got a blue and a 2 and a 6 I needed to take a blue rubber band from a bag with my left hand and with the same hand put it around 8 nails on the board. This went on for a while when the board looked pretty full of rubber bands. Then I just threw the dice with different colours. This decided which colour band I could remove from the board. Very tricky, all left handed.

Then I got to play colour suduko. It was awesome! Just using my left now long suffering side….

4.30pm Water therapy! How awesome! In the small indoor pool with Marlene. She gave me some floaters to keep under hands and legs and arms then she showed me techniques  of how to turn in water using very little power just technique. folding your shoulders forward. Well I never knew that was important until now.

I was very tired after all this exercise. Posted something like don’t know if they want to cure me or kill me on Facebook and twitter.

Then I had dinner. And here you know you are lonely when the name tag on your table only says your name which it did tonight…. I miss my girls but they called to say they had a good flight back.

I went down to dinner in a wheelchair. Its impressive how much more the left hand can turn the wheels than before. I’m getting pretty quick!

I also wanted to say something about typing here. It’s getting easier every day. There is no change in how the left hand feels (or doesn’t feel) but there is a huge difference in what it’s willing to do. I wished now someone had filmed my attempts at blogging just a week ago. It’s a huge difference.

For me every day here is a challenge. But I am getting stronger and more like me every day. Don’t know if I will ever be

Double figures in days I have been here!

Johanna and I head down for an early breakfast! Great as always!

9am Physio in the gym with Marlene. I got on my blue plastic horse again! It behaved for the first time and I managed to keep my legs up and keep the balance all the time! Then I got a new exercise for my left leg. I got on and off the “horse” using my left leg on and off. Like you would on a normal horse, then I got another exercise standing up on my left leg pointing my right toes upwards forwards. All more weight on left leg. It needs it. I’m a long way away from being able to get on a horse.

10.30am Ergo therapy with Angelina. She was doing a lot of work for my shoulder. Weight lifting and moving arms up over head. I then got to lift a box full of coffee beans and some stones, to move stones out of the box and other stones in to the box then move the box again. It all finished off with me having to lift stones of varying weight to a shelf higher than me. How hard but now done!

11am Psychology. Today we talked about my feelings. My plastic bubble wrap that protects me.

Today tuesday.

First night spent on my own since accident. Felt OK but just can’t remember if I took my medicine last night or not, always easier when you have someone to remind you.

Today lie in. First lesson with Ergo therapy not until 9am.

Angelina (therapist) led me to the kitchen. There were lots of things to bake with. She said -Today we are making bread.

I got to measure up all ingredients. Then mixing them all together and kneading the dough. It was hard work for the little leftie! Then we left it to breathe a little as I went on my other lesson.

10.30am Physio therapy. Long walk to the gym followed by a ride on the blue plastic wonder horse again. It was so much easier this time! I could do all sorts of tricks on it and kept my balance most of the time.

I got very tired afterwards. It’s like this huge explosion of energy just leaves my body all at once and I could fall asleep just sitting down.

I had gluten and lactose free lunch served.

Another sleep. Dan called whilst I was sleeping. Oh dear I can’t remember what we spoke about. Hm, might need scan on brain again to make sure it’s fine.

Left side today felt some pain. Marlene said thats good. Pain is often the first thing you get to feel when you are getting your feeling back. Angelina said as long as the pain is not too sharp. I think the pain I felt was a bit duller. More a slow ache rather than an explosive knife edge. I will be able to update you tomorrow.

14.20 Physio therapy in gym again. I warned up on the bike again then I got walking on a wave-board. My legs already feeling the jelly-ness after the bike was shaking like mad. It got better when I bent my legs. I walked up and down the board probably 50 times before I was let lose on my new toy! I have had the wheelchair taken from me and have been given a walkies with wheels. Sorry don’t know what they are called in english. Here they are called Rullator. Mine is called Ideal. Now I can walk around pushing  my way forward and be noticed! I think I might miss the wheelchair but Ideal has got a few secrets like a sittable seat for example!

3pm I finished baking with Angelina the Ergo therapist. We did a german Sunday bread that looks like a plait. In the end after all the kneading and plaiting of the dough I got to paint it all with the yolk of an egg all left-handed!

Now I am waiting for my new company to arrive. They must have just landed at Zurich! it’s my lovely sister and I hope she can stay here for a few days! Hourrah!

I was speaking earlier to one of my therapists and about this bubble that I still feel that I’m in. It’s like both body and soul are trapped in this plastic bubble so my feelings are less. Both on the left side of the body but also with all my feelings. it’s like I’m on some really mind numbing medicine. It’s not that I can’t feel anything. I just don’t feel anything that takes energy from me. It’s so weird. Like my mind has cut off any emotional suffrage to save the bits that are left of me.

Yesterday I had some really bad news. About a horse in Mallorca. She had to have an operation yesterday and I was upset as we won’t know the outcome of the op until 20 days. If it didn’t work we will have to put her down and yes even though this is painful information and I would normally get more involved, feeling more. Now it’s just another problem that needs solving. No or little emotion. Maybe thats what I have become, an ice queen?

Does anyone know how I can add a photo here on wordpress? I will add one of the bread I baked when I get the know how.

Keep smiling! I’m walking!

Heaven! Kids are here! And a very sore and sick husband.

Day started around 2am when Myrna decided her bed was too lonely. I then had small child and her fluffy toys move in with me.

Breakfast was a whole different story with children involved. I had planned on going to gym afterwards but I was so tired I went straight back to bed.

Myrna offered to bring me in my “wheel barrow”. Great! Now I feel like a real vegetable and all.

After my morning snooze we braved the hot pools of Bad Shinznach. They opened in 1651 so they are pretty special!

They have between 5-6 pools but we went in the biggest one.

You start indoors and then you swim under or through a plastic cover to get outside.

There are plenty of bubbles to be had. Sprinkles to stand under and a whole 68 meters fast stream you can get carried around by.

Dan and Myrna even tried an indoor cave slide with water and lighting. It scared Myrna and also Dan. Not somewhere to bring children under the age of 8 or 9 years.

I then got really tired again. Children and hot water taking my energy but at lunch we went to a close by airfield where they have a good restaurant and playing field with swings and seesaw for Myrna and Mel. We saw lots of planes landing and taking off. Beautiful setting and high entertainment value!

As it’ Sunday today I had no therapy. I also listened to Susanne from yesterday who said one day a week it’s good to relax the whole body and do no muscle training. Yesterday I felt fine and ignored listening to her, today I feel tired and I am so listening to the wise words…

Tomorrow I have a long day with several treatments the last being a water gymnastics. I will show her my skills! I can almost float and in the water I don’t feel as handicapped. (Although my stamina is way down on what I used to handle).

I think the biggest thing to overcome is my previous conception of myself. What am I? Who and what have I become? How has this accident changed me? I still feel like I am in a plastic bubble. Half protecting me and half hiding the truth.

Now Dan is feeling worse so I will take girls down on my own. We will see how that goes. Tomorrow I’ll tell you all.

Good night and keep smiling.xx