So because of bad network my post from 2 days ago was not posted until now!
So strange how networks work… Or in this case does not work and put an un-levelness on everything in life.

Here at Magna Racino ca 30km south of Vienna we have beautiful hot weather! It’s 29 degrees today and we are jumping. Well at least Julie Andrews is jumping.

She won today the gold tour here. It’s a 145cm class with 87starts! Ayrton was her winning companion but she also was 3d with Miss Lyckad in the silver tour and 5th with Calantus in bronze! So a great day for team WGE!!!

Being here at a big show has really got me questioning if this is what is like to get back doing. The answer is I don’t really know. I need to come back to where I can train my horses to the correct standard and fitness. I am not sure how to do that where I am at the moment. There are too many uncertainties for me to give an answer now. But what I feel like is like to get back to the fitness and a level where jumping feels fun again.

I have been for hacks around Magna Racino. What an incredible place! Everything imaginable for days of fun is situated here. Racing, trotting, polo, casino, racing cars… You name it. They probably have it here! Everything is of the highest standard and very well looked after. Credit to them! Next year they will change the way they are going to host this show. It will go back to a 3 week tour so maybe me and Ava could go?

Keep smiling 🙂 the weather is always good for someone!

Some days it just boils down to the downright basically of actual balance managing to stay upright or stay on a horse or a bike, now I’ve hopefully come a little bit further. Now I have to try and balance my work and private life. This would have come easier to me before the accidents now I have to make very conscious decisions.

Last week was the first time I got on a bike since 2012. I went uphill for 10km then downhill for 10km! There was a coffee break in between and it was fun! It was strange, but fun! I’m not sure I could go on my own as I’m not sure how I would react if something “happened”. A flat tyre or any other mishaps just don’t seam worth it on my own. Technically I feel stronger on my right side. I don’t want to let go of the right hand. It’s also very hard to work standing up. I don’t have that problem on the horses so not really sure if with more practice this will become easier?

I am now on my way to Austria watching my horses jumping at Magna Racino. It’s the first time for me. It looks incredible, and at the moment Vienna has 4 degrees warmer climate than Palma! Let’s hope horses will be ok as they are more used to rain and English winter weather!

I have continued my piano lessons! I am not sure I talked about it here, but I thought a couple of months ago that my left hand needed to practice her fine mobility. I have never played the piano. At least never long enough to learn notes! Now I can quite easily read “normal” notes, don’t get ahead of yourselves. There will be no Chopin played by me soon. The left ring finger has to learn to curl and take directions as a single finger and not a pair or a group… Long way to go, but an enjoyable one so far!

Keep smiling 🙂 sometimes you will find yourself surrounded by babies that don’t belong to you on a 3 hrs long flight and they are just bubbly and gorgeous!

Some days it just boils down to the downright basically of actual balance managing to stay upright or stay on a horse or a bike, now I’ve hopefully come a little bit further. Now I have to try and balance my work and private life. This would have come easier to me before the accidents now I have to make very conscious decisions.

Last week was the first time I got on a bike since 2012. I went uphill for 10km then downhill for 10km! There was a coffee break in between and it was fun! It was strange, but fun! I’m not sure I could go on my own as I’m not sure how I would react if something “happened”. A flat tyre or any other mishaps just don’t seam worth it on my own. Technically I feel stronger on my right side. I don’t want to let go of the right hand. It’s also very hard to work standing up. I don’t have that problem on the horses so not really sure if with more practice this will become easier?

I am now on my way to Austria watching my horses jumping at Magna Racino. It’s the first time for me. It looks incredible, and at the moment Vienna has 4 degrees warmer climate than Palma! Let’s hope horses will be ok as they are more used to rain and English winter weather!

I have continued my piano lessons! I am not sure I talked about it here, but I thought a couple of months ago that my left hand needed to practice her fine mobility. I have never played the piano. At least never long enough to learn notes! Now I can quite easily read “normal” notes, don’t get ahead of yourselves. There will be no Chopin played by me soon. The left ring finger has to learn to curl and take directions as a single finger and not a pair or a group… Long way to go, but an enjoyable one so far!

Keep smiling 🙂 sometimes you will find yourself surrounded by babies that don’t belong to you on a 3 hrs long flight and they are just bubbly and gorgeous!

So even as day to day life keeps rushing by at speeds unimaginable to the me 3 or 4 months ago.

Now I instead just embrace being me. Being here. Being mobile and awake.

I tend to forget what I have been through. Maybe it makes it easier on a day to day basis. Not to constantly worry about what has happened. But it does make me vulnerable I guess. I just keep going and doing.

We’ve had Ava delivered. She is our new horse from Germany. I hope she will be a good team member as I want to get back to some sort of normality.

It’s hard as not only do I have to remember that I don’t have the endurance or strength, the balance or straightness. I also have to remember that horses feel much more my limitations.

My biggest worry now is that I seam to have lost my ability to write. Maybe because too much want to come out and there isn’t enough time or space.

I’m going to leave this half hearted attempt to write about being me.

I am planning a music festival as a fundraiser for Headway. More about that next time!

Keep smiling 🙂 you look good! 😉

I am so sorry for the delay but I have had some tech related problems that hopefully (fingers crossed) I have now managed to solve??!!!

The time flies by! Literally! It only feels like yesterday since I came back from Africa but it has almost been a month!

Hopefully now my wordpress settings will allow me to post my blog like it used to in the “good-ole-days” before I changed my faithful iPhone 4 to the Poncy iPhone 5. In hindsight the world we were living in was better with the 4. The days were easier to put words to… At least wordpress blog words!

I will post this in the sole use to see if my technical ability has survived certain TBI issues…

If it works I will post something more meaningful in a little while!

So here goes…