Good morning world.
Or should i say-” I can’t see you!”? This getting better is not really going my way any more. Apart from catching every considerable virus that goes around, it then goes to become the most vicious decease possible.
In June…. A small throat virus, normally probably cured with a Strepsils sucking tablet, for me it led to 42degrees fever and hospitalisation for close to a week.
In July, conjunctivitis entered our world through our smallest daughter. Washing hands, disinfecting, drops… the works…
In August conjunctivitis has travelled through the entire family in different grades and what do you know? I only have it more than doubly as fierce as anyone else.
Saw a doctor yesterday. She honestly didn’t seam to happy to see a virus so over the top… A well… She better get used to seeing it around me. Whatever little virus does to normal mortals they truly send in the troops when they come for little pink haired me. A well, a membrane was removed of my right eyelid and she was worried it was possible for me to develop an eye ulcer… A well Elena (my groom) quickly made the connection and called me “Jolly”. That is the horse I had to put down when I was in hospital due to her going blind after operating both her eyes for eye ulcers.
Elena is not on my christmas list… well more so off it after the doctor asked me if she was my daughter. She is 8 years younger than me in real life… And on recalling my head age of 17years and hers of 21years… she is actually 4 years my senior! Well what can I say? That hurt! Honestly, after the doctor had asked that I should have removed myself from her office and asked for another doctor! That way I could have maybe gotten a bit better today, or at least able to open my eyes. Now they are like little breathing mussel shells… closing, closing, closing.
On a brighter note. Before I had this vicious eye infection it all started to feel more like a life again! I was back riding and helping a friend breaking a horse as well. Well to begin with I did it as a double favour to 2 friends. One who had a 7 year old horse that so many people had tried to break for her and one after another had failed because of random things. The other friend I thought I was helping was one who has a son coming back for a summer holiday. I thought that involving him in breaking this horse would fulfil his vacation and keep him out of trouble but boy I do not get 17 year olds… After 4 early mornings where he brought his younger siblings along he just stopped coming. And I was not going to be the next in line failure of breaking said horse. So me and the friend the owner have finished the job in a mere 2 weeks!
That has given me such pride in being me again!
My tourette’s syndrome and antisocial behaviour has kept on as strong as before. The only difference is I now embrace it. How can you always go on tip toes afraid of what you will say and how it will be considered by the people that hear you? I now know who is strong enough to hear my honesty and I instead avoid completely the friends I know i could upset with my straightforwardness. So far it seams to work! It does not make for happy chit chat but at least I know I won’t upset people with my anti-socialness.
I wanted to post a picture of my sore eyes here. Or should i say sore eye? As i still have very little feeling on my left side its actually only my right eye that hurts! Hourrah! I knew it would come in handy one day!
So I am looking for exercises I can do without seeing anything? Swimming is out of question. Walking up and down stairs has been fun, but also a bit “edge” sport as i can’t tell where the stairs end. I would also be grateful for any muscle toning for stomach area as my left side paralysis kind of makes normal stomach crunches a thing way off the past.
Keep Smiling 🙂 I am keeping a positive vibe until my tourette’s kicks in but hey ho, if you can’t laugh about it or yourself you should have a long deep inner conversation with yourself! And there if like me you find an unsoiled 17 year old with hopes and dreams, smile and keep smiling!