It’s the end of February. 2016. It’s been a year since my cancer diagnosis and 3 1/2 year since my accident. I do apparently look normal to most people! Or personal favorite “really well”! Does this mean I look a little bit porky? I think so. But maybe not for too much longer.

Two weeks ago I started the SSS90 with The Body Coach in London. Shape, shift and sustain and it’s gonna go on for a whole 90 days. I am on day 17 today. I wanted to get back to the old me. The system is quite cleverly built up containing training as well as diet. I’ll tell you now it’s not for everybody. It takes a lot of planning. But once you are up and running it’s pretty fun! Atleast I love the HIIT training (high intensity interval training) and all the food is great! 

The biggest difference so far unfortunately is lower energy levels. I guess you can’t get it all, and in my case I’ve started to slowly accept that now. For me the daily struggles becomes just that when I run out of energy. It’s hard to do anything when tired. Even speaking is hard. Luckily I’ve now realized I’ve just got to take it easy or even better go to bed for an hour. 

Most of the time people think I just look normal. This would be seen as something positive. The problem is that no one ever sees me struggling. Partly because I won’t let them and partly because I look “normal” mostly. My two biggest horrors at the moment is 

1. Facial blindness. Parents at our kids school get a little of this every time I meet “new parents”. I can’t categorize or see patterns in faces anymore. Unless they have very distinctive features or wear jewellry that I can recognize or if I can hear them speak. That in combination with tiredness can be fun! It doesn’t apply to people I knew before 2012. Strange!

2.Double vision. Still here. But only if I try and jump my horses or if I am tired. I can now just close one eye and I have developed quite a good sense of depth with one eye! This means I can now jump again!

So I guess all in all I should be thankful for not looking like a freak! (Or more of a freak than I naturally am!) I accidentally posted this a bit early and do feel like it sounded a little bit depressed! Couldn’t be further from the truth! I am smashing my HIIT training before breakfast and I can now do an impressive set of burpees!

Keep smiling!